Don't push that button!!
I spent the better part of my Saturday night resting, catching up with some reading, helping my sister with her essay, and chatting with friends. Person of the night was my friend Keir who like usual, always finds a way to ask the questions I'd rather people not ask. The question of the night? "So do you have a hot and sexy man?" I sat at my computer a bit taken aback, and smacked my head because it as probably the hundredth time someone had asked me if I had someone. The answer? No.
I don't know why he enjoys pushing people's buttons so much, but he does. As does everyone else. Especially when it comes to my love life. Surprisingly, the entire conversation (hot and sexy man question included) was really fun. It was almost therapeutic as he offered some insight into the male mind, and helped me to separate what I felt were problems, into more succinct issues that I guess I could work towards overcoming. I think at some level I realized all of it, but it just helped to chat with someone.
One thing I have been trying to explain to people is what I've really been trying to spend this year doing-- which has really been to figure out how I tick, to get a better idea of what I want in life (relationships, career, personal happiness) before I decide that I really need a partner. It's not always easy to say that you're going to focus on yourself, while a lot of your friends are in long term relationships, engagements or are married, and because everyone is telling you that you gotta hurry up and settle down. I don't think I'd take back what's happened this year, except for maybe a few things I'm not so happy about, but I feel I've gotten closer to knowing what I want. Yes it's something that's always changing, but after having been out of school for a little over a year, I have a better idea of the people or type of people I want to be around, how to build a better relationship with my family, more or less the kind of guy I would fancy, what my career aspirations are, and working towards making that reality. Life goes by too quickly in Toronto, and it's worth the time to really ask who you are and know who you are. Life is too short to worry about all the retarded things in life. And if you know me, and the shit I always seem to get myself into, for me it's important to come to realizations sooner, understand and move on. If I don't realize how to continually grow myself as a person, how will I be able to make a fulfilling contribution to a relationship?
I don't know why he enjoys pushing people's buttons so much, but he does. As does everyone else. Especially when it comes to my love life. Surprisingly, the entire conversation (hot and sexy man question included) was really fun. It was almost therapeutic as he offered some insight into the male mind, and helped me to separate what I felt were problems, into more succinct issues that I guess I could work towards overcoming. I think at some level I realized all of it, but it just helped to chat with someone.
One thing I have been trying to explain to people is what I've really been trying to spend this year doing-- which has really been to figure out how I tick, to get a better idea of what I want in life (relationships, career, personal happiness) before I decide that I really need a partner. It's not always easy to say that you're going to focus on yourself, while a lot of your friends are in long term relationships, engagements or are married, and because everyone is telling you that you gotta hurry up and settle down. I don't think I'd take back what's happened this year, except for maybe a few things I'm not so happy about, but I feel I've gotten closer to knowing what I want. Yes it's something that's always changing, but after having been out of school for a little over a year, I have a better idea of the people or type of people I want to be around, how to build a better relationship with my family, more or less the kind of guy I would fancy, what my career aspirations are, and working towards making that reality. Life goes by too quickly in Toronto, and it's worth the time to really ask who you are and know who you are. Life is too short to worry about all the retarded things in life. And if you know me, and the shit I always seem to get myself into, for me it's important to come to realizations sooner, understand and move on. If I don't realize how to continually grow myself as a person, how will I be able to make a fulfilling contribution to a relationship?
posted by Miss Pow @ 10:35 p.m.
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