Yes, and fuck you too.

Hello?!? Can the world stop being angry at me please? I believe I've been screwed up the ass enough times and all this shit really has got to stop. It's amazing that I've managed to live to this age and still maintain some sanity.

At work it's so easy to feel wanted, to feel smart, and feel good because I can help other people. My colleagues listen to me, even my babbling non-sense, and they are genuinely interested in what I have to say. Heh, or at least I tell myself that!

At home it's another story where I repeat myself a gazillion times and on the last time I'm normally yelling, trying to speak more clearly and concisely. But somehow on the very last time, that's when everyone hears me and then suddenly I'm a bitch, I'm inconsiderate and selfish, and I don't pay my parents the same respect that I show everyone else. Yes, I'm not what my parents would deem an ideal daughter, as in I don't exude all of the characteristics of a fantabulous obedient Chinese daughter, but you know what? I don't give a goddamn fuck. I'm sick to hell of my mother ignoring me and giving me dirty looks, I don't appreciate being blamed for the scratches on our new van because our garage is too damn small for both my car and the new van, and lastly I'm really sick of my mom screaming over and over again that I don't treat her as well as I treat my friends. Hasn't she noticed that I try to please her? I help take care of her when she's sick, I talk to her, I help her as much as I can around the house? Not to mention I've tried not to make a failure of myself so she can go and brag to her friends and make herself feel better than everyone else. Oh wait, I'm incapable of finding a boyfriend. Scrap the last bit about not making a failure of myself.

I love my friends as much as I love my own family. There's a select few that I hope to be friends with for a very long time, and if anything I wish my own family would offer me the emotional support and time of day my friends do.